Thursday, December 14, 2006
Well, sensative little me has been up to something again.. starting to paranoid over what i need again.. SECURITY!! i scared to be dumped, i scare to re-culture a new relation again.. i feel so empty everyday.. this sucks big time.. i jus wanna be a little princess to live happily everyday, wif my man to hug me silently.. dun need sweet talks or presents.. but who's e 1??
Aaron used to be my man.. no matter what he did i still very proud of him.. but recently he has been e irritating n nuisance man i rather avoid n be alone.. i long for e peacefulness and happiness when he's a NSF.. thou no $$, thou no future plans, at least no stress.. i feel so stressed up when he's around.. he nv understand what is PRIVACY.. he complained tat others call me dear darling n etc.. but is he so sweet to me too? no, he isn't anymore.. wat he noe is unfair and jealousy.. have he ever spare a thot for me? wat i need he isn't givin me then y should he blame others providin me wif wat i need? shouldn't he be trying hard to please me more than anyone else rather than giving me problems..? i have my freedom of speech & actions.. but i feel so suffocated now.. sometimes i rather be in office than outside.. at least i can breath.. maybe is 'too used' to having each other around so we actually blinded ourselves rather than seeing e defination of 'u happy is my happiness'.. being in relationship is abt happiness, not torturing each other..
alright, truth is there definately some guys out there going after me now.. afterall, i'm still a young babe who's so adorable.. whaha.. *puke* but i dun dare to go n explore any new chances of relation cos i scare of failure again.. i dun like e courtship part where all e Q&As will cum out.. 'what u like to eat, what u normally do, let me intro my friens to u etc'.. so no chemistry.. n guys r getting more n more assy.. i rather be safe than sorry again..
maybe being alone is a blessing for me too.. thou wifout someone to hug me to sleep (i'll sleep when i'm tired anyway, jus kinda later i guess), at least i have no worries..
*May God bless me with mighty power & all man shall be my slave!!* whaha..
PrinCeSs C's heaRt BeLL RingS.. ; 11:02 AM