Monday, February 26, 2007
i dun noe wat to write.. e whole mind is so occupied wif everything.. can feel tat millions of emotion cells trying to voice out.. actually i'm trying to cut down e numbers of blog i'm writing so whenever i'm unhappy i will stop looking forward to type it out.. maybe i over self protect myself maybe its jus nt my luck to have much close friens, maybe i really dun wanna bother anyone abt my business, but well, blogging is still e best for me before i cope everything inside n die.. To tell e truth, Ssmetimes i'm seriously really lost abt life (when i thot everything is in my hand)..
to GY, we never noe abt each other's past, n i nv wanna noe abt it. out of my understanding of myself, i can tolerate everything except of another person standing in between us. ask e whole world everyone noe abt how serious i'm regarding this. i noe these few days incidents r out of ur control but i seriously very irritated to see her. but i guess u're lucky, i nv flare up at u at all thou my blood is boiling inside, i still can tok nicely to u.. How fake i'm man.. watever it is, do ur part as my bf to protect me pls..
to someone, dun keep toking abt everything we share, we had, we went, we did or even marriage anymore. On e day we broke up, everything's gone. i hope u understand its a mutual understanding tat thou we love each other but we aren't so tolerance abt each other therefor we go seperate ways. memories r forever sweet n nice, i admit its hard to put everything in e past n live on but since we're both nw attached wif another person we think we love so jus move on.. this is nt gonna be fair to another 1 of them at all.. i'm trying my best to protect GY n fulfill my duty as a gf to him. So whether me n him work out or not is another case, but i seriously dun wish i'm e 3rd party in between u n ur gf.. still can be friens, n i'll be attending ur wedding..
ended my mistake to work at ham finally.. 1st march back to my family.. there sure bond to be some assholes toking abt me.. but my concious is clear, i not scare.. going bk takes some courage too.. i've been slacking, i need to strive n find bk e xiao bai in me.. rain or sun dun stop me at all.. feeling kinda useless abt myself nw actually.. i call myself a hermit.. hiding in my comfort zone too long to be e confident me again.. can someone slap me n wake me up pls..
PrinCeSs C's heaRt BeLL RingS.. ; 1:01 AM
