another week has passed.. hasn't been blogging cos las wk was kinda short of time.. dun noe y..

sat we attended his frien's wedding.. from morning till nite, i dun sense alittle bit of xin fu-ness from the frien at all.. stories from all around said abt the couple.. but anyway, my only comment is e groom cares abt his car convoy more than e wedding.. haha.. simply waste time waste moeny..

well, things has been becoming more nuture at house nowadays.. its a house or rather my room than a home.. no longer a home.. everyone seems to be back to normal except me.. i just can't take it.. just like u have been praying to the wrong god for the past 22yrs.. no way i'm gonna tok to him anymore.. So... everyday either i rch hm before 9pm or stay out late till after 1am then go hm.. wat a sad case.. i'm still dwelling on it..

realised that i'm a girl who really needs alot of attention.. n if i dun get it, i'll seek from somewhere else.. its a bad habit.. especially now when everything is so fragile for me.. i become fragile too.. i no longer bother abt wat other feels.. cos i can't even take care of myself anymore.. feeling so insecure.. tired of being out for the whole day but i even more hate being alone at home.. hate falling asleep on the cold cold room just by myself.. but it seems to be e only choice i have cos nobody is there to stay beside me..

so instead of grieving abt my sucky life, i try to look forward to weekend.. where my him will be out to accompany me.. sometimes he sucks big time too.. but sometimes he's real nice to me.. i realised i'm getting bit impatient wif him.. or maybe jus tat i wan to sound out to him my feelings.. u noe, i really super lack of security n attention.. sometimes when i'm all alone, i feel so pathetic that i'll hug my little pilow n cry.. something i nv wanna tell thou.. i have nobody understand my story, no shoulder to cry on, n i dun noe wat i have now..

PrinCeSs C's heaRt BeLL RingS.. ; 6:30 PM