oh.. so finally i'm approaching friday.. TGIF.. 5thday day of training..

god damn it lor.. i'm fucking tired n exhausted liao.. ta ma de.. n its jus e 1st week.. feet very pain, blisters bigger than 50cents, n most worse, backache.. really gonna break down soon.. mentally n physically..not only study all those necessary procedures.. i also need to study jap.. i thot jus simple things.. no.. teach u 2hrs they expect u to speak like a pro.. oh.. tis is tougher than wat i think.. n makes me wonder y i join JAL in e 1st place other than e rest..

haiz.. how ah?? i can not back out now n e road infront is so hard to walk on.. of course i noe, jus tolerate tis 6mths n i'll be a step higher very soon.. but at tis present moment i'm stuck.. almost every morning, i really feel like not goin to training anymore.. jus fuck it n find another job.. it jus feel 100% worse than going Shatec.. very much similar, but worse procedures.. n its gonna be even worse in japan.. i might jus cry in my rm every nite there.. all by myself there.. how ah?? little miss pampered can not take it anymore leh.. :(

can someone clear my doubts pls.. ppl dun really noe me told me to hang on n its gonna be fine.. ppl who're close to me give me no comments.. wat abt cherie's thots abt cherie?? i noe i can make it but its a matter of how much i wanna do it.. i'm doubting my desire for tis job already.. tml got test, but i'm blogging now instead.. haa.. shows how interested i'm ah..

recently, relation is so weird.. i dun noe how to explain but he concern abt me when i dun bother abt us.. n vice versa.. or rather tis has always been our sort plug area.. n latest collection, threat comes frm a guy frien of mine.. well, he's not bad looking, fit n most impt really nice to me.. yar, i like e attention of being concerned.. but its jus not this guy i need it from.. i noe wat i need n who's living in me.. watever it is, i've no energy to meddle abt relationship issues. no energy to quarrel or look elsewhere.. jus fine now will help me more than nothing..

i'm lazy to fall in love. even lazier to fall out of love.

whe i'm tired, hug me pls.. i jus need to feel my existence.

PrinCeSs C's heaRt BeLL RingS.. ; 1:10 AM