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Wednesday, December 26, 2007
ok.. today's gonna be a volume full entry..
jac got married finally.. so pretty n i'm so touched.. i noe she'll be fortunate.. its jus a moment of folly n blindness of both.. i can c e love of them.. n on e nite of my best frien wedding, he told me something which i nv expect..
broke up.. he left me.. tired of struggling between reality n insanity.. tired of not able to slp n puke when i eat.. tired of torturing myself.. in pain.. i brought it to myself.. for demanding so much.. i should've noe i'm not e fortunate lot. n tis time, i fell again.. not gonna step into love anymore.. its not for me.. i laugh cos i'm in pain.. my tears flows dried n ended.. i forgot wats happiness cos it left me.. i treasure e memories we had.. i appreciated wat u give me n changed for me.. i appreciate god gave us e chance to carry on e mistake we made initially.. n now maybe god wanna put us to test.. n obviously we fail e test.. failed badly.. causing both in pain.. but its ok.. u wun see me anymore cos u give up loving me already, i noe..
leaving on a jetplane to japan in 25days more.. counting down not cos i really look forward to it.. but its a test to me.. all alone going to a stranger place where i noe i sure break down. haha.. maybe try pushing myself to e limit.. good chance to be hermit.. enclose myself under stress in a foreign country.. 6wks = 42days = 1008hrs.. i wonder will become of me after i cum bk.. i wonder i'll go thru it or not.. i doubt myself.. i got no faith in myself..
aimlessly living everyday.. i dun noe wat to do.. tired wanna slp.. but scare of being alone.. its contradicting.. i love e person but not e way he treats me.. i love e treatment but not e person.. is it so hard to strike a balance between both? jus some1 to love me lots n be little nice to me is enough.. i promise i'll stop demanding.. but nobody listens anymore..
PrinCeSs C's heaRt BeLL RingS.. ; 9:37 PM
PrinCeSs CheRie LeE C Y..
borNt On e SarCeD DaY, 25 SeP 1985 (Wed)..
A+ LiBra..
loVeS TranSpaRanT fLuiDs liKe VodKa & WaTeR!
dislikes the world, buT i'M BoWiN tO ReaLIty..
WiSh Tat LiFe CoulD bE BeTTeR..
GreAT BuDDiEs, SisTerS & LoVeR..
No ReGrETs..
What Has e WorLd BeCuMing? ReaLise Me fRm ReaLiTy..
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