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Friday, January 04, 2008
recently this 2 weeks is e worst days of my life i guess.. jal dun wan me anymore.. cos of my conduct.. i noe it.. reaping wat i sow.. a silly mistake tat cost me a life worth to pay..
devastated n collapsed.. i had enough of working hard.. i had enough of fighting againest fate.. i had enough of thinking i can change my life.. i had enough..
sorry dun cure me anymore, nvm dun help anymore.. jus more hurting..
i dun noe is it this job cost me my bf or my bf cost me this job.. i only noe in e end i hav neither.. still remembered how happy i was to received e call? still remembered how pathetic i was crying at ur hse? both equally important.. n both gone at e same time.. its ok to give up this job as long as i hav u by my side i thot.. but no, destiny dun favour me.. it takes away everything cos i dun deserve any.. u noe wat i wan nw e most..?? i jus wanna dive in ur hug n cry out loud..
everything jus hurts so much u noe.. i feel like jus jump off e building n end all worries.. i nv thot i'm such useless till today.. i always think so highly abt myself n believe in myself.. but yet i see myself fall right onto the ground today.. i try very hard to camoflage my expressions, swollowing my tears inside.. how painful it is..
i learnt my lesson of love.. blinded me n cost me my life now.. wats tml?? no tml anymore.. who's cherie nw?? ditched by bf, family crisis, neglected by friens, career-less.. totally worthless.. like i always say others, waste oxygen on earth.. no pride, no stubborness, no more brain cells, no fighting spirits, nothing left.. back to the starting point but i'm not gonna run anymore..
tired.. enough.. i dun wan myself anymore.. i dun love cherie anymore..
PrinCeSs C's heaRt BeLL RingS.. ; 12:17 AM
PrinCeSs CheRie LeE C Y..
borNt On e SarCeD DaY, 25 SeP 1985 (Wed)..
A+ LiBra..
loVeS TranSpaRanT fLuiDs liKe VodKa & WaTeR!
dislikes the world, buT i'M BoWiN tO ReaLIty..
WiSh Tat LiFe CoulD bE BeTTeR..
GreAT BuDDiEs, SisTerS & LoVeR..
No ReGrETs..
What Has e WorLd BeCuMing? ReaLise Me fRm ReaLiTy..
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