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Saturday, May 02, 2009
Sometimes i think i'm way too perfectionist that i lost my way in perfection and went into chaos.. i made a mess out of my love life till i dun noe wat i can do nw..
Recently, i met up with 2 of my ex bfs.. n even hav some slight contact wif giraffe too.. n actually this 3 guys, i used to love them alot.. lets name them B, E & G.. B was e 1st guy i ever fell in love wif.. he's attached nw n he's skeptical abt me too.. but well, i noe things can nv be e same as b4 cos we're both absent in each other's life for too long.. we've nv been thru the worse thing in life together n nv will be i think.. so skip B.. E, it was a long forgotten 1mth romance previously.. e 1mth was painful thou.. i was a shadow n i got e ending i wan frm them.. but i wasn't happy afterall, n i fallen into e same trap again i think.. i made E fall in love wif me again.. but do i really wanna be wif him again? r we suitable at all? i dun think so.. G is worse, i love u still but i scare of u.. haiz.. so afterall, B,E & G are all jus bull shits.. i still hav my R.. R is here wif me thru times when i think i can nt hang on alone.. he make me feel safe n sound when e sea is roudy.. but due to our character, our work, makes us drift apart tat we can't feel each other's heart n passion anymore.. n afterall, comes back to e same theory, i still love myself more..
perfectionist, when can u let live n live normally? persistantly pursuing e perfect life to cover all ur flaws dun bring any happiness anymore.. i forgotton how to live simple n be contented.. i wan e best for me but wats e best? So many good guys around.. who is e most suitable? or maybe i shouldn't ask for any, tat should bring me more happiness being alone..
PrinCeSs C's heaRt BeLL RingS.. ; 4:37 AM
PrinCeSs CheRie LeE C Y..
borNt On e SarCeD DaY, 25 SeP 1985 (Wed)..
A+ LiBra..
loVeS TranSpaRanT fLuiDs liKe VodKa & WaTeR!
dislikes the world, buT i'M BoWiN tO ReaLIty..
WiSh Tat LiFe CoulD bE BeTTeR..
GreAT BuDDiEs, SisTerS & LoVeR..
No ReGrETs..
What Has e WorLd BeCuMing? ReaLise Me fRm ReaLiTy..
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